north dun attract north

i dun think me and my gf are opposite poles of magnet.

we are both as headstrong and stubborn, dun eat "harm" and so many things alike. we are more like.. both north poles. we can never be together. thats y despite the fact that i knew her for close to 2 years but we are not attracted to each other.

but then, fate and love is just like a piece of metal. put it in between us, and we
re stuck for life.

Thank you God for darling.

\(^-^)/

north dun attract north

i dun think me and my gf are opposite poles of magnet.

we are both as headstrong and stubborn, dun eat "harm" and so many things alike. we are more like.. both north poles. we can never be together. thats y despite the fact that i knew her for close to 2 years but we are not attracted to each other.

but then, fate and love is just like a piece of metal. put it in between us, and we
re stuck for life.

Thank you God for darling.

\(^-^)/

getting tighter

this few weeks are getting tougher and tougher, dun even have a proper time to blog.

this week - mis presentation (every week), finance quiz
nx week - finance presentation, macro presentation, ais project submission, mis
nx nx week - ma presentation, itnus assignment due, mis individual assignment due, mis

gimme a break~! this is getting insane, tutorials lagging behind, no time to read the txbk, no time to build/recover frenships (esp 74 buddies, i miss you!) haizz..

anw, mid terms results all out..
finance 19/25 (median 15)
ma A+ (1/3 got A+)
macro 22/25 (median 20.. wth!!!)

overall i'm quite glad with my results, cuz i think i do not deserve it with my efforts, but i'm smart. Thank God for that. I would not deny the talent He gave me, but i shall work harder in using this talent through hardwork and not take Him for granted. and dun bother getting angry if you read about this. i think everyone is smart in his own way or expertise, mayb mine is just academically-inclined. not exactly the smartest of them all, but i'm happy and contented. :D

ok, back to studies, damn.

deutsche bank

cant believe i get to experience wad i juz experienced, its so cool.

initially got an email of invitation (heard only first-class-honours-grades got it)to attend a seminar-like event at deutsche bank, whose application requires us to write a 100 words para to describe whywe wana go. juz days b4 today's event, i received an email confirming that i got selected to go.

today, stepping into one raffles quay south tower, deutsche bank section level 17, after sum network, we got split into groups to play a very interesting game.

there are in total of ard 60 participants from nus, ntu and smu. (didnt find any bizaders from nus nor other year 2s so maybe me n zhen jie super privileged :D)
we were basically split into 3 categories, 4 groups each (miners, manufacturers and bankers) the miners got permit to mine and manufacturers got permit to sell) In addition, there are two start and end points, the "mine" and the "car market". Bankers do not have either permits, but we start with very high capital so we can give loans or trade in large volumes. i belong here. 5 rounds of ten to fifteen mins each, where each round news will updated on the presentation screen which will affect the selling price of the "mine" or buying price of the "car market" which both will affect the transacted price among us gr8ly. initially we started with buying and selling the "pandemonium" from miners to manufacturers to earn the clean profits. subsequently we try giving loans and collect interest. getting more fun into the game, we began to write forward contracts (not future contracts since no standardization and not options cuz we are all obliged and not just having juz the rite to buy/sell the asset at the certain price) and speculate on future prices. finally, as later in the rounds everyone start bypassing bankers, we took on a more active role in trading. lyk usually miners buy at 40, sell us at 60, we sell manufacturers at 80 and they sell at "car markets" at 100. but now they bypass us and seal contracts themselves. but i'm quite glad of a few stuffs i helped. first of all, i suggested to short the metal and promoted the completion of forward contract. secondly, i realized this particular miner buy 60, sell 80, then manu buy 80 sell 100in car market, so i tell the unaware manu about it, say i will give them clean profits, ask them to help me sell (cuz i no permit), then i approach another miner offering 80k per tonne and sell the manufacturer at 85 per tonne and keep doing this so we take 25% of the profits (5k out of 20k) per tonne and seal a lot of deals. in the end, after best miner and best manu announced, best banker is US!! haha.. altho i didnt help much, but still contributed quite a bit.

the best thing is i get to enjoy the competition, the stress, the formulation of new strategy, new products, the experience, the network after that, the insights with ppl lyk their managing director of global rates, director of global foreign exchange, and other analysts, all made me didnt regret spending a long time travelling to and fro and wearing my suit. altho their food not exactly fantastic.

fruitful day.

lost frenz, not found

toss and turn, couldnt sleep, therefore wake up to finish sum of my studies stuffs..

after finishing those, go facebook, and realized my contacts with my frenz are lyk lost..

to see the bunch of handi, phil, melvin, benny, chee tek, cedric all still go out together.. kinda envious..
then saw kayan, shaowei (felle now), kenneth, andy, joseph, larry, wenxian (faith) still going out together.. sadx

looking back. my cat high dun have a fixed clique lyk cedric and gang.. its all gd frenz but not die hard buddies lyk them. cj, used to be very close to them, but duno y i drift apart from them. i think they dun want me too. sa, i can say they are more die hard buddies than my cj frenz, but too, i drifted away from them. wad has become of 03s74? i duno. army, i do not have close frenz in bmt, sispec. yes i have them in tankee course, gd frenz lyk melvin, xingwei, cheng hao, muthu, basically my entire bunk, cuz i muz say it was one of my toughest times ever (esp the driving course part), but still.. no more contact. and when i get posted to lion coy, its all ai troopers ard me and they are lyk in their own world. after army, lfi, i duno how to face them anymore. finally, in uni, my trogun clique, slowly disintegrating as well.

altho i would lyk to say, yes, dear is all i need and want. but still, frenz lost are lyk a hole in the heart, or a bullet thru the brains, sumhow my life doesnt function properly anymore. shd i be "desperate" for frenz to gain them back? lyk keep asking when do they meet up and stuffs, go crash.. its so annoying even i myself cant stand it.

sumthings, once lost, is gone foreva, which is why i'm holding dearly to the frenships i still have now, for God knows when they will expire lyk the rest

"(

lost my freaking phone!!

sian, i woke up on bus 10, wanted to go back vivo buy food stuffs, then lost my phone!! after i realized i lost my phone str away i alighted, i took 188 after that bus. then i alighted and run to the bus, but then it left even tho i ran to the door!! wah lao. den i ran for another bus stop, and almost caught it, then it ran off again. i mean c'mon! you can see me on your mirror chasing you for two bus stops!! and you dun care? wtf is wrong with you!!

after that, board 188 again, alighted and go kr terminal, then the uncle say duno duno. everything oso duno so stupid! the only person i can think of is my darling and only her no. so msged the person. after that off phone!! bloody hell!1 haizz..

anw, these few days so stressed!!! mid terms! mid terms! mid terms!! this is insane! haizz.. dun even really have time to spend with my gf and friends anymore. this is the life i've chosen, stick with it.

damn.