happy bdae to kayan

mood: happy
weather: cool
song now: shen ri kuai le

today is kayan's bdae!

hapy 18th bdae! can club liao lor.. hahahaha.. wun be joining u all tonite.. moz prob.. tmr still got service.. den still got hannah's concert.. hmm..

today was quite happy.. cuz normally.. everyday.. no one will notice about my ailment.. but miraclously.. a clazmate of mine noticed it.. was quite happy.. today.. pe.. played a lot of tennis.. and volleyball.. sorrie guys.. i cant be there on tues.. sorrie.. i got ns stuffs.. thurs i will go for the comp.. nvm lar.. i so lousy anw.. den the tennis mixed doubles.. stupid opponent laz min say if can postpone anot.. haix.. suan le.. u win.. post pone ji postpone lorx..

after the police post visit, 2nd in a week.. went to get a guitar.. and practising.. realize i forgot many songs.. hahaha.. muz refresh.. and learn new songs like.. zhi fei ji, lang hua yi duo duo, more than words, blah blah.. hahaha..

special thanx to my fren who noticed
special thanx to my fren who lend me guitar
special thanx to vincent for sending me the song
special thanx to the gd policeman..

cell grp

mood: ok
weather: ok
song now:

29th july

reflection day

actually today is damn lame.. i didnt do much.. so tired.. mentally and physically.. den alwaz wander off on my own.. so boring in sch..

went to hbf to get my lunch.. with fund sumama victor kkh kaleong and julian.. hahaha.. after sum hoteh pen tricks.. went to suntec.. anw.. thank you soo much.. i cant afford to lose any anymore..

went to c.g.m.. quite fun.. had sum games first.. den sing songs in praise of the lord.. sum bible readings.. on self esteem.. overall quite ok lar.. other than u-noe-wad..

yawnxz.. haven do hmwk.. jialat..

27th july

mood:
weather:
song now:

saw nic beh on the bus.. hahah..

hmm.. on 980.. standin.. dozing off.. when two guys started quarrelling.. about readin newspaper and touching the hair.. haix.. why the trouble? you angry, he angry, ppl ard u cant go home in peace..  y dun u jux slowly tok to him.. and everythin will turn out fine.. haix.. god blez you two..

sianx.. listened to so many songs.. 933.. =(

today got a little angry over sth i shdn't get angry over.. but soon the serenity grows in me.. as i kept my cool and indignant behaviour.. and pretend nothin happen.. soon.. the feelin subsided..

i'm missing you..

god.. guide me in my life.. the most pressing problem now is the prelims.. lord.. give me the power to concentrate on the academic aspect.. for the disturbances i told you yesterday.. help me to forget them.. and allow me to haf full attention to revision.. blez my frenz, give them the spur to continue in this arduous journey of seekin knowledge and gaining acknowledgement for their efforts.. blez my family.. be they safe and sound.. blez her.. to forget me soon.. and to conc on studies now.. and mutually too.. blez everyone who believes in you.. may peace be upon them.. both physically and mentally.. in this i pray in jesus name. amen.

dream

mood: inspired
weather: gd
song now: niji - fukuyama masaharu

i believe he has sum1 for me, so i need not fret.. and shd progress on..

went chc laz nite.. found my ans.. went with ts shuting and jl.. my perspective has been wrong all the time.. really.. maybe.. jx maybe.. i found wad i wanted..

calculate the probabilities.. the coincidence.. the same day a miracle and a service is on.. the rite ans to the pending questions in my head..

isnt it amazing..

dream-
d-desire- u muz first haf the desire.. the asking for more attitude.. to achieve more in life.. god wans you to be above not below.. the desire in you will spark off in achieving ur dreamx..

r-research- u muz be realistic.. as he said.. u wana haf three babies.. yes its desire.. bt u're a guy! u gotta eb realistic and do the hard work in c-ing if its possible..

e-enterprise- u gotta reach out to places where ppl can nv reach out to.. u gotta be the start.. den can you reach out to ur dreamx..

a-association- hey.. i dowana be a turkey.. i wana be an eagle.. a soaring eagle in the sky.. so the thirst for speed innate in me has this kinda meanin.. companies are important.. frenz can only push u up, or pull you down.. no neutral fren.. be with a wise man and u will be wise..

m-mastery- thru practisin and perfectin the skills.. den can u be sure that this dream.. is finally achieved..

when he asked.. whether u all have lost ur dreams.. i felt.. i did.. the hectic life schedule.. is suffocating me.. den i rem.. in pri sch.. i often aspire to be a rich businessman and use my money on saving ppl.. even animals.. cuz i loved cats that time.. how come.. after nine years.. den i can rem..?

faith brings you hope, hope brings you courage, and courage brings you fruits of labour.. off to studyin le.. i have been missin out too much..

and the person i have been missin too much oso.. i will learn to stop missing you..

i gotta progress..

shi er fu de

mood: calm
weather: hot
song now: perfect - s.p

feelin ok..

been rather depressed lately.. no one knoes.. no one wana noe.. so jux jolly well be it.. my attitudes, for studies, for hope, for things even like life, are on the rocks.. there seems to be one who still cares, probing of wad actually happened.. i didnt give in and pour the troubles.. but things jux seem to get worse..

on 20th july.. with a fren.. after going to the fuji ice palace stone.. send her home.. alight at bus-stop.. and realize.. i lost my wallet.. haix.. my ic, posb, ez-link, the claz fund i juz collected which amounts to 70+ bucks.. my first movie tic with.. the two heart shape 2-bucks, my various receipts, my frenship band, my huang cheng tic, my indoor stadium tic, my two china black tics, sum impt name cards, 2 green slips which can be used again, and laz not least, my precious wallet that i haf been usin for 1+ year.. dad jux SO happened to be opposite of where i was at.. reports to bus-inter and police..

beginning to lose hope
 
yesterday.. almoz lose my hp.. was changing in the toilet.. left my hp, 10 bucks, my mum's ez link card.. after like 10 mins.. i ran back.. damn. not there.. shit.. i'm gona be so killed by my parents.. danm damn damn..

god, can u please return me my hp.. i cant lose my hp.. dun deprive me of more hopes..

den.. use teng siang hp keep callin.. it kept ringing but no one picked it up... juz den.. kkh, julian n me all heard the beep sound.. my hp ringing tone.. went to the back.. c nothin but a cleaner.. he doesnt seem to understand english.. asked him sum qns.. juz blur blur.. call again...

he took out my hp from HIS pocket.. well.. julian was saying how dishonest he is, kkh was damn shocked since they were with me.. but only i felt gratitude.. and the ez-link card + 10 bucks he returned oso.. but i gave him the 10 bucks.. julian asked y.. i didnt really ans.. but the truth is even if its 100, 200 bucks that he request, i wld give him.. never mind if its compelled to return or willingly.. the truth is that.. i got back my hp cuz of him.. ten bucks is nothin to the anguish..

julian- thanx for hearin the beep.. and helping me to find it and  confront the uncle.. u're alwaz helping me, in hockey, financial difficulties (polling of money), now this.. i really wana thank you soo much
martin- thank you for letting me hug u.. got so gan dong.. and ur presence juz gave me hope
victor- thanx for tellin me not to worry and calm me down.. dat give me courage and hope to continue seekin for my precious hp
kkh- thank you for pei-ing me in search of my hp.. and oso efforts in giving me a whopper meal..
yx- thank you for calmin me down by saying wad bcuz of me u turned to loud mode.. that relieved my post-shock a little.. and thans for er hua bu shuo lend me 60c..
kaobi- thank you so much! for keep showin concern.. and helping me.. and giving me extra 2 bucks to haf a beta meal w/o even me asking and me resistin.. u're such a gr8 pal..
ts- thank you for pei-ing me at the counter.. and oso pei-ing me down the stairs, and allow me to haf a new form of hope, life.. thank you for not blamin me my lousy orange julius hot dog cuz i forget to put mustard and chilli..
jl-thank you for listenin to my crap.. i duno wad i tokin oso.. but u seem like u understand.. thank you..
shuting-thank you moz.. maybe god arranged the whole set-up =p but i mean.. as i told u.. wad is the probability of losing a hp, and wadz the probability of losing & finding it.. den u pull me to chc.. and there.. i finally realize.. maybe all these i felt in these few days.. are to be solved laz nite.. haf been so foolish.. maybe i've found an ans to my probs..

chc

mood: guang
weather:
song now:

guang

sianx

mood: sianx
weather: sianx
song now: qi li xiang - jay - 93.3

6.34

nice song.. dun u think so? luckily i called you..

22nd

mood: turned off
weather: hot
song now:

radiation? ")

was feelin damn fup today.. so sian diao.. dowana tok abt it.. anw.. to sum1 i've lost in the years.. i still miss you..

den go home.. got no motivation to work.. so ended up spammin sum of my frenz.. tot no one wld reply.. luckily one did.. sian..

dowana study le larx.. so sick and tired.. yawnx.. ltr gonna mug.. haaha.. oh.. early in the mornx.. thank you victor! finally learned the pen trick.. yay heh.. tmr practise again.. hahaha..

jux tok to a fren.. the only who replied to my so pathetic msg.. hang up a while.. still waitin for her call..

bored

today m.e lesson.. sianx.. played a game.. den muz act bunny act cute.. sianx.. so malueding.. can c my stupid foto at fund blog.. sianx..

my ankle recoverin.. ;p dun worry..

wenxian- sorry.. i didnt noe..

tmr got debrief anot? haix. sianx..

rapture

mood:  heez..
weather: cold
song now: gui ji

16 july


today.. started de day on a rather bad note.. cuz cant forget abt those things.. den try as i might.. i did managed to evade the question.. at least for today.. as for mr. roland lee.. sorry i cant conc.. den comes pe.. had 3+ periods of pe.. how it end i dun wish to say.. i mean.. wadeva.. its my fault for pickin a fight ok? fine?
 
bathed.. cooled down.. edwindified a while.. den econs.. haix.. did a lame survey.. on how we get so -.-" results.. sianx.. den out with the guys.. went to fep to eat bk.. which den fer went to scout for present.. den all follow.. oh.. den.. took neoprint.. bcuz of a small mistake by ky.. end up all same pictures.. in the end still decor differently larx.. hahaha.. den.. i went home and get prepared..
 
shuai dai le..
 
went to meridian pei teng siang, shuting and julian play pool a while.. den went to cine ljs wait for kayan.. den ordered a set den share.. cuz no time and money.. den went to.. take... *drum rolls...* neoprint! damn lame lar.. all 8 poses.. den in the end chose 4.. wanted to one finger one.. but no time.. heehez.. den start designing.. hahaha.. den take cab to kallang theatre..
 
reach there ar.. confirm late liaox.. hahaha.. went to watch.. first dance we watch.. indian dance.. er.. doesnt click with us.. so.. ya.. haaha.. overall.. its damn nice.. esp breakdance and teachers' dance.. haaha.. ms lim pao hong damn cute.. so small size den dance like wobber lydat.. hahha.. saw mr. lam too.. wadz up.. hahahaha.. oh.. moz dance were kinda slutty.. wonderin how mrs lim feels......
 
finish le.. saw many frenz.. oh.. for linda.. hey.. when u call me i say wana go is to support u is fake lar.. but supporting you is true.. hey.. i got go k? ;p went home with the clazz ppl.. walked to kallang mrt.. den was about to go.. when i realize.. hahaa..
 
back to dhoby again.. find chiki.. cuz really bo liao.. den walk a little bit.. den catch a cab sendin her home.. hahaha.. er.. tok a lot with her on the taxi.. blahz blahx.. hahaha.. den reach clementi.. bye.. and went to mrt.. saw teng siang and xiang yuan ar.. durnoe spell correctly anot.. hahaha.. got company.. till cck.. den sleep.. wake up.. walk home.. whoa.. the stars sure are pretty tonite.. snorez..
 
i lay on my bed and look up and see the beautiful stars, as i tot.. where the heck is my ceiling? =x

no point

mood: liu lang ren de xin qing
weather: liu lang shi de da yu
song now: liu lang zhe zhi ge



c no point in posting anymore..

damn.

faster 10 larx..

mood: sianx
weather: cold
song now: fly away - f.i.r

sianx..

wanted to mug.. ended up sleepin.. hahaha..

woke up damn sianx.. cuz discman beside me playing wad? wo men de ai.. a song dat dampen my spirits for the whole of yesterday.. sianx..

waiting for 10 pm.. makin a fone call.. so bored.. feel like running away..

alwaz does.

i mean.. such life are of no meanin.. mug n mug.. was damn sad today.. but the more happy i looked rite? durnoe lar.. sum ppl in the claz can make me happy.. sum dun.. oh.. i got 82 for maths.. damn surprised and happy.. i mean.. for a while only.. cuz.. really cmi.. everytime take out discman.. track no. 5..

damn.

survey

mood: sianx
weather: sianx
song now: hou le yuan

sianx

Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now :
1. when can i buy dat phone?
2. when can i finish buying my stuffs?
3. maths tutorial haven do
4. my dream laz nite, dream of jealousy

Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought :
1. a period of time venting on drums
2. bk meal
3. a tic to swim
4. apple carrot drink (not i pay)

Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink :
1. ice lemon tea
2. kickapoo
3. water
4. ice blended choc (mmm..)

Add-ons:
i wana buy so many things.. y nv ask me?

Last Time You Said 'I Love You' and to who?
not really said.. but of written.. to.. sum lame girl.. -x-

Last Time You Cried ?
jux.. dun ask me y..

What's In Your CD Player ?
f.i.r cd.. they rockx

What Color Socks Are You Wearing ?
eh.. dull white.. u got a problem with dat?

What's Under Your Bed ?
wah.. wait ar.. comics, jigsaw, coins, worksheets, notes, cup(wad? so dere's my cup.. eeks..) a pair of shorts, a burn techno cd, sum foto albums.. whew.. i didnt noe all these are there..

What Time Did You Wake Up Today?
0806

Current Hairstyle?
high slope both sides.. spike hair or rather messy look.. high slope at the back.. two shaved lines at the back.. damn. dm sure catch me one..

Current Clothes ?
nothing.. hahaha.. got a line 7 shorts.. hocker foreva..

Current Desktop Picture ?
a pic i took with...

Current Worry ?
No $$

Current Hate ?
to say the truth.. not only i hate him.. rite?

Favorite Physical Feature Of The Opposite Sex?
hair.. i'm not sick..

Last CD You Bought ?
sum yrs ago, ayumi's "i am" album, first & only original :)

Favorite Place To Be ?
esplanade(memories), sch roof, escape, clarke quay, macritchie, casuarina, wisma roof, i durnoe! how to choose?

Least Favorite Place?
home

have u ever been on stage??
wld u believe if i said no?

fave c0l0ur(s)?
blue.. dark blue and light blue.. but not those flashy normal blue.. damn. wad m i tokin?

Do You Believe In An Afterlife ?
not really.. but am being influenced by the teachins of the bible

How Tall Are You ?
178cm.. taller when lying down.. ;p

Current Favorite Word/Saying ?
durnoe lar. <--- not durnoe but seriously this is the one..

One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could be?
her, cz i nv noe how she felt..

Favorite Day ?
anyday im with my rib bone..

Where Would You Like To Go ?
new zealand.. cuz my ??? ??? say can fulfil our wishes there.. b4 25.. muz do it..

How Many Kids Do You Want ?
2! both guys.. v fun one.. me n my bro.. special bond

Preferable Age to get married?
if i can find the one i really love.. who can be the one and only to control me.. and loves me the same as i love her as long the distance as walkin in a circle findin the end point.. datz when..

damn

mood: argh
weather: coldd
song now: lydia

how can u..

hey.. i said i wana buy dat time liaox.. altho i nv confirm.. jux say its nice.. but.. how can u..? arrghh..

stupid clazmate of mine.. bought panasonic x70.. i wana buy one.. den still purposely msg me tel me n gek me.. ah.. thanx.. thanx a lot ar.. i tel u dun buy liao rite.. lydat bcum i copycat.. damn bu shuang one lorx.. how can u!

damn. shd haf bought it jux now.. str after the interview thing..

damn.

yesterday & today

mood: happy ba..
weather: cold
song now: ni de wei xiao

the Fairyland in Reality

yesterday ar.. woke up late.. so end up nv go martin hse swim.. had a long phone talk wid my ??? ???.. den realize.. ah damn.. 2 hrs liao.. f.. gotta get going.. so rush over to woodlands lib find yuki n martin mug.. almoz finished carbohydrates.. nv touch maths tho.. den off to town..

went to find kayan at man-u shop there.. get the cd.. and help her run 2 errands.. one to pass wx the present another to break note.. find wx at cine.. with so many frenz i've nv seen for soo long.. haix.. damn. y didnt they call me.. am i so unworthy to be their fren.. but.. wadeva la.. dun really give a damn oso.. not main point.. the scariest thing is.. changing the $1000 note.. wa.. damn scared i'll get robbed lar.. go so many places oso dun haf.. dn kayan join me in the changin-note-adventure! so scary lar.. hahaa.. anw.. i felt rich for that two hrs.. hahaha.. be it holdin $1000 note or 10 $50 notes.. thanx kayan! thanx for makin my day.. u're still my bestestestestestest fren eva.. and thanx for the company till my fren called.. thanx!

went to tiong bahru plaza.. waited for martin for so damn long! haix.. lucky at the balcony there got v v v v v v v v v very chio nite sky.. super duper luper nuper guper nice! as the nite sky penetratin my eyes.. ouch.. its so beautiful it hurts.. cz i rem when i had laz seen so nice a nite sky.. the phone rang.. my ??? ??? called cuz i gave her a miz call jux now.. hahaha.. if not i really bored until i may juz go irritate the security guard by acting suspiciously and runnin away if he approach.. thanx to a waste of time on ur side dat kept me company.. oh.. no more tokens.. so went hm.. after apple carrot juice, courtesy of martin.. slumped into the bed..

mood: sadedx
weather: cold
song now: wo men de ai , wo men de ge(damn loud)

are you dere? can u hear me?

wo hao xiang ni.. ni ting de dao ma? ting yi ting zhe shou ge ba.. wo men de ai.. ni hai ji de.. hao jiu yi qian.. ni shuo guo ji hu yi muo yi yang de hua.. ya he wo shou qian shou.. yi qi zou dao shi jian de jin tou.. ni hao xiang.. wang ji le.. ni ye shuo guo.. ni de sheng ming bai zi.. ying wei wo you le se cai.. dan shi.. wei he xian zai wo de zi shang.. que shi.. hui se de ne? hai ji de.. ceng jing gen ni kan.. haix.. bie shuo le.. wo zhi jing.. hai shi bu gan tai tou.. ni zhi dao wei she me de.. yi qie dou guo le ma?!? wo shuo guo.. ni tuo lei wo.. dan.. ni ye ming bai.. dao di shi shui tuo lei shui.. dan shi wo hao she bu de.. wo hai zai deng ni ni zhi dao ma? wo yi jing wu fa ji xu zhe yang xia qu le.. ru guo shi jian dao liu.. wo bu hui zai fang kai ni de shou.. bu hui zai rang zhi ji bei shang de xiang nian zhe ni.. bu zai wei she me pi zhi you guo du er li kai ni..

wo hao xiang ni.. hui dao wo shen bian hao ma? wei she me ni mei la zhu wo? wo zhe me nan la hui ma? wei he zhe me cao shuai de ba yi qie fu shang yi ge ju dian..

damn. wad m i writing.. outta my mind.. bleahx.. "/

9th july college day

mood: as fine as sand
weather: cold
song now: 93.3 liang ge shi jie

nice hair

today.. went al ameen qte early.. 8.10.. so went btp walk ard. den watch a little copa.. at btp.. den walk dat path.. tot of the past.. hahaha.. giggled past.. and reach al ameen..

ai tai yuan - 933

ate a kosong & an egg prata.. nv eat liao.. den martin came after me bene n yuki finished.. haix.. took 61 t sch..

reach sch.. cover my hair.. went to audi at 12.. sing like hell.. both quantitatively and qualitatively.. hahaa.. esp f.i.r fly away.. finally got the lyrics after sum efforts.. finished the lects.. sum attendance markin.. hall for sum lame shit.. den dinner with sum clazmatex..

the reason

den ate bk.. home.. tmr still swimmin.. gonna slp early..

den called a fren.. for fun actually.. if i dowana be serious and talk about my main point dat is.. yea.. hahaha.. so talk a little.. crap i mean.. hahaha.. too bad.. haix.. oh.. she oso swimmin.. c who tan more ba.. ;p

wah.. sianx.. can and shd i write here?

new haircut

mood: tired ar
weather: cold
song now: guiji

den dai

den dai
den dai ta de dao lai
den dai yi ge nen rang wo fen bu gu shen da ta dao lai
den dai yi ge nen rang wo zhen xin ai ta de ta dao lai
den dai yi ge rang wo nen zen zhen ti yan ai ren de xing fu de ta dao lai
den dai yi ge ren
den dai.. den dai zhe de den dai..

ya ya.. life goes on as per normal.. sorta reconcile wid a fren.. used to call her a "name".. so if i cont callin u dat.. plz dun freakin get the wrong idea again and jux get used to it.. den ar.. mugged a lot.. assembly den civics.. after dat 1st break use to mug.. den more tuts n lects.. damn stupid.. at the physics lect.. a clazmate sittin bside me.. den i jk put my hands over her shoulders.. den they whoa whoo.. i mean.. no wonder another clazmate a gd fren of mine say they v si ban.. oopx.. hahaha.. didnt mean it.. ;p den m.e.. saying abt infatuation n love.. i still cant differentiate? isnt it the same.. i think infatuation is a requirement b4 love comes in.. hmm.. den 2nd break eat fast den mug.. physics.. kana suan for being stupid.. ppl not in my shoes cant get the meanin.. three periods of chem.. broke a conical flask.. 1.70 down the drain..

went to cut my hair.. on the bus.. martin kept muackxin with *ahem.. den ky oso.. oh ya.. when hl say chao si ren.. cuz me n yuki iritating them talkin.. i say i alwaz go cemetery play guitar.. geddit? nvm.. even i myself think i damn lame.. *my toes are laughin h.a.h.a* den go cut my hair.. haix.. tmr sure gana zam.. hahaha.. dun get caught can liao.. haaha.. tmr having breakfast with hoteh gang.. yay.. lookin forward to it.. too bad gurls' movie cant match.. den cant join us.. but they all oso dun quite can make it to sch lehx.. mean girls.. lame show.. stupid gals.. slow watchers..

a post to you

mood: relieved
weather: cold.. damn cold
song now: xi guan ni

eh.. 7th july!

today.. went hm early.. prepare sth.. on a sad note.. and left.. but luckily.. it ended upon a happy note.. whew..

my dearest fren..

durnoe if u r readin this now.. i suppose no.. but.. yea.. hahaha.. thanx for giving me a chance.. and urself a chance too.. i think..

first of all.. sorriex.. i mean.. u shdn't be mad at me u c.. moz of my closer frenz noe my bad habit.. so u cant blame me for being late for 50 mins.. ya.. i mean.. u were talkin to ur fren oso wad.. yea.. kinda sorriex.. but u muz know it takes time to consoidate all the gifts.. and the mixed feelings.. to decide to step out of the house and the decision to be made.. it all takes time.. u cant blame me..

sorrie when i said u cant be like her.. cuz datz who u r.. and i think.. jux think.. dat u had oreadi used ur own way to hold me back.. i think.. cuz even tho u said durnoe.. but the returning of them.. i think u sorta made ur stand clear.. so i think.. i oso shd be rational and not doing things my way only.. so i think.. my decision.. is no decision.. u geddit?

damn. it has been such a long time since i cried 'front of a gal.. i mean.. everytime my tears hafta drop.. i make sure i'm alone.. so no one needa worry bout me.. and an eye drop beside me.. lest ppl notice my eyes sth wrong.. but now.. can i jux.. whenever i'm sad.. be like b4.. jux find u.. and if possible.. pour my troubes to u? i mean.. haixz.. i durnoe lar..

eh.. ur fault larx.. now i c the full moon alwaz will c a ball liaox.. all thanx to ur wonderful brain.. plz.. who can stuff a moon in dat thing? summore i only pluck stars for ppl.. not moon.. i need it lar.. to read.. i'm a chao mugger.. weh.. thanx leh.. moon.. stone.. golf.. earth.. bball.. any possible-er ans anot?when i say u toot sumtimes i mean it..

haix.. think u might haf got a shock from me today.. suddenly so much crap.. or maybe u oreadi noe.. i mean.. if today.. u still say not free.. perhaps.. jux perhaps.. i'll make my final decision.. and say a final.. jia.. or english.. bye..

and ur job.. is cancelled.. now.. ur new job.. is to.. faster get my cd done and over with.. noe? and den.. for his case.. i think.. i will tok to him... personally.. and u not nice one lorx.. haix.. anw.. i think i noe wad to do liaox.. as u said.. bu guan le.. oso.. u beta do the same.. (p.s how come i nv realize i got turn and look ard?)

finally.. i durnoe wad the heck was i doing.. jux tot it can be beta.. but seems like.. i dunno.. nvm.. anw.. wo xi guan jiao ni... *blahx* so if anytime i call u dat it doesnt mean anything.. ok? dun get all paranoid up..

regarding ur poor state.. all i can say is.. jia you.. juz weeks away.. if cant change ur state.. den an an jing jing de huo xia qu..

gd luck.. thanx.. for wad i durnoe.. but.. thanx..

101

mood:
weather:
song now: hui dao guo qu



jux tok to a fren.. cleared sum misunderstandings..

den i was thinkin.. can we go back to the past..

i tink we can.. but.. it takes 2 hands to clap.. as u said..

but if.. we r so close again..

den..

him..

how?

if things can go like its in the past.. den how?

in the past..

he used to be v gd frenz with him.. but now.. c the scenario.. er..

haix..

ni she de ma?

100th entry

mood: dui bu qi
weather: hot
song now: gu dan bei ban qiu

shao le ni de shuo bei dang zhen tou wo bu nen xi guan... shao le wo de huai bao dang wen lu ni xi bu xi guan..



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~*~wo zhi shi~*~
~*~bu xiang ni shang xin~*~
~*~zhi shi hen xiang~*~
~*~ba ni de shang xin quan fang zai wo jian bang~*~
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~*~dan shi~*~
~*~wo zhi dao~*~
~*~wo men zai zhe yang xia qu~*~
~*~ni ke nen hui wang le wo~*~
~*~ye you ke nen~*~
~*~tao yan wo~*~
~*~shuo yi~*~
~*~wo zhi you zhuo xia zhe ge jue ding~*~
~*~shuo yi nen rang ni dui wo bao liu zui hao de~*~
~*~wo..~*~
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~*~ni hai ji de~*~
~*~wo men di yi chi zai ba shi shang~*~
~*~tong wang yi ge wo men dou bu zhi dao de di fang~*~
~*~na shi~*~
~*~wo men shi duo me de xing fu~*~
~*~shuo wuo shuo~*~
~*~xin lian xin~*~
~*~jiu zhe me shui zhe~*~
~*~shui ah shui~*~
~*~zheng ge er lou zhi you wo men~*~
~*~wo men de shi jie~*~
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~*~ni hai ji de~*~
~*~wo men chang qu de di dai~*~
~*~ni bang ren pai zhao~*~
~*~wo men mei li de shan he yi tian kong~*~
~*~yi qie..~*~
~*~ni wang le ma?~*~
~*~~*~
~*~ni hai ji de~*~
~*~wo dai ni kan hou zi~*~
~*~yi qi zou le yi duan~*~
~*~hao chang~*~
~*~hao chang~*~
~*~de yi duan lu~*~
~*~wo men tang zai cao di~*~
~*~kan ye kong~*~
~*~17 ke xing xing~*~
~*~wo men de ye wan~*~
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~*~ni hai ji de~*~
~*~wo men zai b.g~*~
~*~zhuo ar zhuo~*~
~*~na xie ren tu ran chu lai~*~
~*~hai wo men duo zai pavilion hou mian~*~
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~*~wo bu xiang cheng wei ni de bao fu~*~
~*~wei you zai wo che di shang xin~*~
~*~shi wang~*~
~*~zhi qian~*~
~*~gao shu ni zhe ge jue ding~*~
~*~ni hui muo ming qi miao~*~
~*~qi shi wo ye bu zhi zai gan she me~*~
~*~dan shi~*~
~*~zhe yang bu zheng shi ni shuo yao de ma?~*~
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~*~wo shou gou le~*~
~*~wo bu xiang zhuo qian gu zui ren~*~
~*~yuan liang wo~*~
~*~ni bie xiang wo~*~
~*~ying wei wo hui nu li wang le ni~*~
~*~wo hui hao she bu de de ba yi qie ji yi xiao chu~*~
~*~yi ge erase~*~
~*~yi qie dou you ru meng yi ban~*~
~*~wo ye jiang cong zhe mei hao de meng li shu xing~*~
~*~zai jian le~*~
~*~lao po~*~
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~*~ni zai clarke quay na wan wen guo wo~*~
~*~shuo wo wuo zhe ni de shuo~*~
~*~yi ding hui hou hui~*~
~*~wo xian zai zai shuo yi chi~*~
~*~wo bu hui hou hui de~*~
~*~wuo ni de shuo yi bei zi wo dou yuan yi~*~
~*~ni shi wo di yi ge xiang pei ni dao lao de nu hai~*~
~*~zhen de~*~
~*~zhe chi mei pian ni le~*~
~*~yi hou ni ye mei ji hui~*~
~*~rang wo~*~
~*~pian le~*~
~*~bai chi~*~
~*~bu ai ni de~*~
~*~zhu pi gu~*~
~*~ T.T ~*~

99th entry

mood: sucky
weather: cold
song now: heng xing de heng xin

ni he wo.. kan xing xing

wanted to get a cd from kayan.. she left hse liao.. -__-"

oh.. sent a wrong msg to sum1.. so hafta say sorrie to both of you.. haaha..

sian.. went to the bbq.. quite fun.. actually can noe many ppl one.. but today really no mood.. hahaha.. aiya.. all i can rem is.. dun say shuting, kaleong, martin and yixiang.. is.. joseline, wendy, marc, terence, howard, jollie.. er.. realli cant rem liaox..
sum food & games.. lame ones.. bored.

tired..

sleepin soon.. dozing off.. i haven slept at home for 3 days.. and in peace for a long time..

gu dan bei ban qiu

mood: gone
weather: rainin soon..
song now: gu dan bei ban qiu

xiang nian bu hui tou lan

yesterday arh?went to stayover at fund hse.. so dat makes me three nites consecutively not at home.. ben hse.. chalet.. fund hse..
gui ji
yesterday.. watched the finals.. sianx.. i.t w.a.s s.o d.a.m.n b.o.r.i.n.g.. i h.a.t.e g.r.e.e.c.e.. dat cowardly tactic.. even if it won the euro.. i'll never support it.. greece.. u suck! three lousy nites.. cant slp well.. so i'm gona so gona tok cock here..

anything i say below has no sense.. so for rational ppl.. dun read..

kaox.. my leg so damn fuckin pain.. my toe.. cant even walk properly cuz of dat.. really feel so damn f up.. i mean.. y? y of all ppl me? hey.. u're not fair.. oh.. thanx for pei-ing me.. and wakin me up on the bus.. hahaha. .hmm.. be siyu.. greece suckx.. i mean.. they really do suck. so sianx.. i'm like.. dying here.. wah.. nv type so fast b4.. jux write wadeva coming into my brains now.. but keyboard so lousy.. hahah.. hmm.. feelin so wad now lor.. seems dat i'm in the way.. as in.. haix.. i'm obstructing ppl larx.. sianx.. the thing is dat i dun even noe wad effects i've imposed with my actions.. but well.. i dun give a damn. all these rambling.. blah blah.. hey.. i miz my pri sch claz.. hahaha.. oh.. today.. suddenly realize.. how selfish i m.. how greed i wus.. i mean.. yes.. i m such an idiot.. saying one thing doing another rite? haix.. but sumtimes.. its to prevent hurtin ppl.. bt end up hurtin both of us.. i mean.. haix.. i dunno how to deal with it liaox.. say oso cannot.. dun say oso cannot.. haix.. juz forgive me larx.. i dun mean to cheat.. haix.. wtf.. im like.. tok until no sense liaox.. i tink ppl call this post exam stress.. but horz.. hey.. i dun need exams to gimme stress.. i m stressed.. wtf.. oh.. jux listened to cun zai.. and wondering bout a qn i've been tinkin so long ago.. sianx.. wad am i to do? haix.. i dun love her.. yet. i dunno wtf m i doing now lar.. nnbccb.. li kai wo de shi hou.. que mei she bu de.. hhaha.. oh.. suddenly realize.. dat the guy.. is so in lurve.. and the guy.. is so not serious about anything.. and dat the gurl.. is so poor thing.. and dat the gurl.. has acc the guy.. and the guy.. has been the first culprit.. and dat the gurl.. has sowed discord.. and dat the gurl.. is admired by all.. and dat the guy.. do not noe the truth.. and dat the gurl.. so not noe the truth.. and dat the guy has been lurving her since first knowing.. more than a year.. and dat the gurl.. has been in dat guy's memory since 3yrs ago.. and dat the gurl.. only entered dat guy's life 3months b4.. if u dunno who.. its understandable.. cuz in here i'm refering to at least five guys and gals.. yawnx.. i'm so bored.. hey.. i need to lurve sm1 with all my heart.. so i can kick this bad habit of mine.. and dat i can stop being so cruel to dat gal dat guy and dat guy. oso dat gurl if i can.. rubbish rubbish.. can i run away from everythin?

chalet!

mood: not bad larx..
weather: fine?
song now: zhi fei ji - sandy lam

611998 rawkz

cuz yesterday went for martin bdae.. cant stayover with them at siyu's chalet.. so.. after a fun nite at ben hse.. went to sentosa meet them.. and hey.. i've got an extra ticket.. yay.. hmm.. den ar.. monorail.. to palawan beach.. soccer + volleyball.. hahaha.. a lot of slackin.. oh... sum swimming.. cant expect that they dun intend to swim.. come beach.. dowan swim? haix.. in the end only me, geh, gautham swam.. hahaa.. u muz be wonderin why in the world i tanned rite? hahaha.. i durnoe too.. den left sentosa le lorx.. went to bedok.. a bit of grocery shopping.. preparin everythin.. i tink siyu really ought to thank qq lar? he's like.. chu qian chu li.. even if u not paying.. u jx wasted his 100 buckx.. he still nv grumble or anything.. wad a gr8 fren to haf.. and u still take for granted.. haix.. oh.. got sum things haven prepare yet.. so decidin to buy ltr.. like tongs and blahx.. hahaha.. anson - tongs.. no link? hahaha.. oh.. and the thought of wei wei baking a cake.. prompted me to buy my own dinner instead.. hahaha..

reach the chalet.. hahaha.. anson durnoe go where.. no keys.. so out we waited.. hahaha.. den the enterin of the smelly kingdom.. den start fire.. hey.. i m the one startin fire.. can u believe it? omfg.. and first try.. can liaox.. wah.. of cuz got sum other pro help oso lar.. heeheex.. den went inside.. saw so many frenz today!

*take a deep breath..

qiaquan, siyu, weiji, the-missing-zhaoyan, honggeh, haihuang, brendan, benjamin, gautham, weiqi, denise, cheeyong, huifang, weiwei, sharon, amanda, hoi wang, laura, karboon, omar, ayuni.. did i miss out anyone? hahaha.. dun rem.. muz get the pic den say.. hahah.. and other clazez which i rem is.. guofeng and xianyu.. de others juz noe yesterday.. sum v fun can click well sum cannot.. hahaha.. den ar.. bbq.. kop more than i eat. hahaha.. honey sausage.. fav.. hahaha.. otak.. satay.. crabmeat.. marshmallows.. blahx... den soccer for the guys.. hey.. guofeng is pro.. but 611998 rawks.. 12-6.. hahaha.. den i freakin injured my toe.. den it was like.. bleedin like shit la? but no one noes.. cuz i nv say.. until too many ppl c i'm like.. squeezin my face.. den they realize sth wrong.. hahaha.. nvm larx.. sian lar.. damn pain lar? now still pain.. ...

alot of foto-takin thruout..

den celebrate.. hahah.. qq, ji n xyz bought SIA airstewadess uni for him.. den he changed.. hahah.. so chio rite? *puke..* hhaaa.. sing tog.. den.. eeks.. wei wei actually call that tiramisu cake? er.. hahaha... actually its not bad larx.. juz dat we guys nv praise the gurls one.. hahaha.. oh.. heard hui fang n siyu went elephant riding yesterday.. i'm like.. wtf.. the 2nd laz person i wld tink of to go with siyu.. hahaha.. nvm..

a lot of foto taking.. den got formal claz foto oso.. damn gao xiao lar.. no Mr. deepak singh only.. if he here i sure sabo him one.. hahaha.. den a lot of informal.. jap act cute 10 ways.. hunk-masters.. act cute ttm posts.. haix..

den sum gurls like glued to the bed.. laura denise karboon are sm v gd egs.. hahaha.. quite many gurls stayin over.. quite fun.. oh.. winning-11 7.. me vs laura.. haha.. let her score one goal first.. she use france.. den i thrash her 4-1.. song boh? hahaha.. hmm.. den ar.. went out.. play pool.. benjamin is quite zai i hafta admit.. and.. hoiwang. still.. within the 1m radius.. hahaha.. nv leave the gurls.. like scared we will go bastard them lydat.. hahaha.. wth.. den ar.. inside too cramped la.. so..

went out.. nite breeze by the beach.. alone.. so shuang.. can c the moon so clearly.. den the honks of the cruise.. and the frequent nite planes.. and the sound of ppl leaving.. *whooosh.. the tides came crumbling onto the beach.. as my tots strayed off.. a fren of mine came to join me.. didnt really tok much.. juz.. sittin dere.. sayin sum you de mei de.. look at the sea.. the star.. the sky.. the clouds.. the reflections.. beautiful.. oh.. i took a foto with this fren oso wad.. heheex.. and they are like.. alan.. cong shi zhao lai.. -.-" dun haf lar.. haix.. maybe i do ar? hahaha..

den.. ji called me.. went back pack up.. off to the airport.. send him off.. he's like.. giving a speech lar..? so cute.. hahaha.. den.. go home.. 858.. alighted.. send a fren home.. home.. sleep..

nice day..

past few days..

mood: numb?
weather: coolin.. dat was laz nite..
song now: zhi fei ji - sandy lam

past few days.. (edited on 4th)

fri.. martin bdae party..

happy bdae!

hahaha.. so fun.. lemme reminisce a bit.. whoa.. nv had so much fun at any bdae party b4.. i tink the bez part is the security.. cz alwaz get pushed down into pool.. hahaha.. ok.. initially.. me n ky went to martin hse from town.. and ky kana cheated one can of drink.. er.. went in.. blahx.. played sum tennis.. table soccer.. 10-9.. lost.. hahax.. den to the pool.. where more & more ppl kept coming in.. rather nice claz bonding.. den the fire-starting part.. so shuang.. hahaha.. sum eating.. b4 ky got thrown down into the pool.. hahaha.. so darn farnie lar? he still posed in the water.. den all the throwin.. haix.. so i take off my shoes cz got a small hole in my sole.. water can go in.. den stupid benson.. keep song yong ppl throw me in.. u gd lar? hahaa.. den i kept escaping.. tink i managed to get 2,3 ppl into the pool.. cuz they wana throw me in.. in the end? ya.. cant def the majority.. and a lot of chasing oso.. got lotsa pictures taken.. and mr. lee.. hahha.. almoz got him in lar.. but yh too stupid return him the cam.. haix.. but nvm lar.. he's a gd teacher.. but hor.. mr. koh like a bit extra lehz.. so guilty we cant play gd hosts.. haix.. damn.

with all the fun and laughter.. yea.. hahaha.. wadeva wadeva rite? heeheex..

p.m.s

mood: sucky
weather: sucky
song now: hui dao guo qu

jing jing kan zhe ling chen huang hun..

woke up.. saw sum1's name on my inbox.. and in a half-daze mood.. open the msg.. and rem.. damn. i forgot to watch the match too.. shit.. so i cant accuse her of ps-ing me oso.. yea.. damn. greece bao leng again..

oh.. fund won money rite? draw..

sianx.. yesterday was damn sucky.. and if not for the fact tt i'm a guy.. i may be wondering if i m having pms.. cuz my mood jux so bloody sian diao the whole day.. ok.. mornx.. due to lack of slp.. i actually fell aslp outside readin room there.. meanin? cldnt complete my revision.. den chem test.. cldnt conc.. the whole brain only three things.. celebrations + i-wanna-sleep + a regular aintment.. damn.. den thruout the paper i jux sit there in pain.. fuck. i juz screwed my paper.. there goes my all pass wish.. damn.

after dat.. went to buy martin's prez.. and the indecisiveness of my gr8 claz juz prompted me to go to the hmv below to listen to sum songs.. oh ya.. speakin of it.. hmm.. gotta download f.i.r's album.. fly away, lydia, wo men de ai blahx..... if i haf the $$ i confirm buy one lorx.. haix.. and who knows abt my situation now? perhaps one or two closer frenx.. one in which i tink i revealed a little when we're on the phone.. oh ya.. sorriex for troubling you.. make u cant study.. and the other fren ma.. called me laz nite again.. datz wad i call a bez fren.. haix.. oh.. den at hmv.. was oreadi damn pized.. budden.. i saw sum1.. y of 647.5km² of singapore.. not to count the levels of sooo many buildings.. and in this 10m².. i can c her again.. damn. so am i actually the one who cant let go?

damn.

so freaking turned off liaox.. den c they all wan dowan lydat.. intensified! bought the present.. b4 me n vince went to meet the gals to pass them the money.. den went to c ky fer kkh cut hair.. today me n vince going oso.. yay! new haircut.. confirm kanna catch one.. but.. i mean.. to make 4 famous.. we MUZ do this.. hahaha.. anw.. went to take a neoprint.. five of us.. hahah.. damn gao xiao.. kkh got dracula teeth..i super act cute.. got big muackx. vincent lurve fer.. ky got shit.. cheeky smilex! fuo guang.. hahax.. dat did alleviate me a little.. den find the ppl playing lan-games.. did sum gr8 magic tricks.. went ps.. walk.. and went home.. take is when me n ky take to raffles place den take back one.. haah.. so idiotic..

home.. tot i can watch sum soccer after meteor garden.. but time lag so much.. ended up slpin..

woke up.. another day.. gonna cut hair ltr.. sianx.. will me, vin and fer end up scaring the class?

damn.

mood: sianx
weather: qoo~
song now: me against the music

chem tmr

gd luck to me for tmr.. since my com still on den post another entry b4 i go meet my dream gal ba..

checked my hse phone.. 2.18.24.. whoa.. dat long? 2hrs+ damn.. muz haf dragged her down.. made her cant study.. hmm.. was asking sum qn.. b4 i cont crappin on & on~ damn. sorrie arx.. if needa drink p or vp tea den i owe u a favour larx.. ;p and again.. thanx for the w.c n n.k.. ThAnX~

yay~ tmr.. after chem.. chiong ar~ hahaha.. durnoe chiong wad.. but sinz alwaz say.. den lydat lorx.. hope tmr can haf a gd claz outing..

but b4 dat.. maybe i shd slp first? den wake up and begin mugging at 8 tmr.. and get my laz a pass if possible.. haaha..

ciaox.. durnoe y.. i suddenly felt so relieved...

*off to meet my dream gal~