days...

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so many things happened.. bt jz dun haf the time to write.. now can finally pen down my tots..

laz entry on mon.. so start on tues ba..
tues- nth special oso.. hmm..
wed- halfway in the day i went totally collapsed.. luckily.. i'm not alone.. ;p den evenin went to watch soccer match.. lost 4-1.. haiz.. den went to eat wif diana zien julian n kevin.. at bk..
thurs- super sian diao.. honesty is impt rite? no point explaining after the whole thing.. jz cant take in anythin after dat.. tho b4 dat u're still so fine.. but.. haiz..
fri- ben hse day! after sch.. went playing badminton.. heh.. quite fun actually oso.. must qie other ppl liaoz.. learn a bit can play liaoz. .hahaha.. teng siang is my teacher lorz.. hehez... den went fund hse spam pot.. den home.. den ben house.. hahaha.. had fun la.. but sure not as fun as them lar.. cz i arrived late.. hehez..
sat- morn woke up.. finished up writing the letter.. make my hair.. played a bit of pool.. ultimate loser n winner.. hahaha.. inside joke.. eat at cute chicken.. den out.. had the time of my life.. really enjoyed myself.. thanx.. *hugz* rem to send me the fotos soon yea? as to the thing, i'll eat it after i recover.. thanx lotx.. and altho u pized me off by not buying sum stffs.. and straining my eyes for yrs.. but nvm.. forgiven! hm.. saw my bro.. complaining how hard life on tekong is.. eatin like he nv see food b4.. complaining, saliva like water flowing.. hahaha.. ate my dinner at slept..
sun- woke up after a dream.. damn.. y m i alwas dreamin of ppl i shdnt be dreamin of.. y of all ppl.. haiz.. but.. wait.. i'm not fickle.. or m i?

sian diao

mood: sianx
weather: coolin..
song now: ai qing zheng shu - steph sun

sian diao

so many things to turn me off today la?

today ar.. first thing in the morn.. mr u-know-who kb me again.. say wad when can give him the decision.. kbkb so much.. my results not ur results.. my decision not ur decision.. my life not ur life.. haiz.. foff lar..

den ar.. in class.. nothin really.. cept wu yuan wu gu kana attitude... wth? wad did i say wrong..? suddenly so fierce.. kaoz.. u having a bad day i'm not isit? my headache and sore throat aint giving me any beta time either.. so dun out of nowhere suddenly lydat.. haiz.. nvm.. since now i noe the reason.. haiz.. suan le..

hope ur mood get beta soon

haiz.. reach hm quite early.. took a nap.. ask my mum to call me at 6.. woke up at 7.30.. parents gone.. door not locked, wide open.. wad the hell.. ltr i get robbed how? haiz.. after this gona go study liaoz.. sianx..

jz spoke to a fren.. she say i shdn't drop if i dun wan to.. maybe she's rite.. hmmm.. juz realize she's always there when i'm down.. be it probs with sch work, her, parents, every kinda prob.. talkin to her can alleviate.. thankx ya?

blurry

mood: blurry
weather: hot
song now: something of value - yellowcard

blurry

yawnz.. woke up at 1130 to watch tv today.. quite shack.. slept at 4.36 laz nite.. or rather.. the laz time i c de clock.. den today forgot wad did i say laz nite oso liaoz.. *blurry* tink i said quite many things i'm not supposed to say and not planning to say.. hmm.. forgot wad i said oso.. sianx..

guilty

hmm.. my head's spinning in circles now.. and my pain.. gone? haiz.. if dis continues.. if i cont to skip.. one day i sure collapse one.. but.. haiz.. nvm la.. dao shi zai shuo ba.. hmm.. maybe one day i shd juz take out all my savings and spam.. anyhow buy.. anyhow eat.. hmm.. durnoe lar..

oh.. fri nite.. finished watchin the nj concert.. me, jialiang, fund, benson, martin and grace yinxian meigee adeline and dorcas.. den went to clarke quay.. the nite's sky damn chio.. the river.. so chio.. wait! i rem.. i was here not long ago too.. with sumbody.. super suay incidents.. she kana followed.. we almost durnoe where to go.. we went hm damn late.. she kana kb a bit.. i took a cab damn ex.. yet....

still memorable.. if i can capture this moment.. if time can stop.. if so much troubles nv come in.. if i can go back.. if everything can go back.. if only.. hm.. if is not a gd word.. it makes ppl regret.. it makes ppl depressed.. it makes ppl greedy.. makes ppl always asking for more.. but.. is asking for more bad? is asking for wad u wan bad? even if its bad.. i still wan it.. i'm greedy.. if can oso give me thinkin.. of how to avoid making the same mistakes.. lemme noe how i can deal wif it.. arghh.. dun uds wad i'm toking.. sianx.. dun tink anyone knows wad i m saying oso.. no point..

pplz.. anyone out there uds me?

family

mood:
weather:
song now:

family ties

finally.. i know my parents uds me.. we had a long long conv.. of mr u-know-who and how to deal wif it.. of social skills.. of ppl's mentality.. of jobs.. of ns.. of results.. of un-impt of uni.. of problems.. of various encounters in life..

i really hafta thank dis mr. u-know-who to make my family bonds stronger.. when we stand tog to deal wif him.. my dad rocks.. serious.. realize i'm juz a greenhorn dealin wif probs.. he can deal if them so tactfully.. he can shrink from all responsibilty and made no mistakes yet makin his objective met.. he rocks.. really hafta thank mr. u-know-who.. for his unreasonable words n actions.. his chu-er-fan-er.. his ye-man.. his tyranny.. so i can c how much my parents care n uds..

mr. u-noe-who.. wan to get my parents against me? check your attitude out first.. check how much they uds me first.. den consider again.. sowing discord cant work.. my dad's rite.. anw.. i lost my respect for you.. in the first place.. i dun haf any for you..

bring it on!

we won

mood: yawnz.. =O
weather: hot
song now: zhi nen bao zhe ni - jasmine leung

we won!

went to watch bball match today.. both guys n gals against hcjc.. gals lost.. guys? won! finally.. the long-awaited revenge.. yes! hahaha.. and altho they gave the mvp award to hui jie.. i tink quan ju deserves most of the credit for the victory.. he really damn zai la? but leaving for nba selection soon.. haiz.. zai ge *salute*

hmm.. after dat went to eat wif sum ppl at j8 mos-burger.. wah.. dis place.. so many memories.. four yrs.. once a cat high, always a cat high.. oh.. crapped quite a lot.. got me ky kkh jialiang zien diana fund martin julian who went off early.. (sorry if i forgot bout anyone..) den bitched ard.. and to the person i suan juz now.. i'm juz jk.. serious.. i meant no harm.. juz bitchin ard with the notorious bitch.. yea.. hehez.. den went hm..

was about to meet sum1 and pass sth.. but ar.. so far.. sianx lar.. dun go liaoz.. yawnz.. den went tian di.. haiz.. so many comics come out liaoz.. wallet left 55 cents.. kaoz..

oh.. wenxian juz sent me a msg.. so gd.. to know sum1 cares.. its like.. out of a sudden.. u recieve dis kinda msg.. tho common.. but still feels gd.. :)

cough

mood: sth-is-missing-frm-my-life mood
weather: horribly hot
song now: ai shi... - fish liang jing ru

wo yi ding te bie, de gan dong..

my cough.. sore throat.. getting from bad to worse.. damn.. haiz.. *cough.. from missing my meals.. one meal per day.. to eating chicken cutlet <-- only meal.. it doesnt take a genius to figure y my sore throat so persistent.. but den again.. who cares.. at most tmr dun shout dun support lor.. big deal.. who give a damn?

den today ar.. ok lor.. and amazingly today ms tyx doesnt pized me off.. today only.. so sianz.. nth to do now.. anyone who got my hp no. call me lehhz.. at least to let me noe who cares.. but.. doubt i'll receive any.. :/

oh.. today went to watch hockey gals match.. they won 2-0.. dey seem rather happy tho.. the guys laz match oso won 2-0.. --.--" so qiao.. yawnz.. tmr bball match.. shd i go watch..? but xin qing bu hao lehz.. shd i still go.. or is there anyone out there.. guys gals old young chi malay ind dat can pei me one whole day slack? jz sumwhere.. dowana tink about anything.. and i mean totally nothin.. juz go sumwhere.. dun talk.. dun crap.. dun console.. juz accompany.. sit down.. or lie down.. and slack....

i'm so bored now.. supposed to write sth laz nite.. but too tired oso.. today.. i c no need in riting liaoz.. lucky nv write.. waste my ink and paper.. sianz..

oh! there's dis song dat kept revolving in my brain for no reason.. scary ya.. ;p

Dui gei ni de xin zhi
liu xia zui hou yi feng dan dan bi ji
ni shou xi de wen rou qing bie jie yi
wo hui jiang xin zhi hao hao shou zhe
dang wo xu yao ni guan huai de shi hou
zou guo xia ri jie tou
hai shi xiang qian ni de shou
hao xiang ting dao
yi ju wen nuan de wen hou
sui ran wo men shuo hao le
hai shi peng you
dan wei shen me que mei you zai lian luo

ai ni bu shi liang san tian
mei tian que xiang ni hen duo bian
hai bu xi guan gu du jie dao
yong ji ren chao
mei ni yong bao
ai ni bu shi liang san tian
yi zha yan xin jiu neng chen dian
ni shi fou xiang nian wo
hai shi xiang wo
zhi he ji mo zuo peng you
x2

dan xin ni mei you hao hao de guo
bu hao ni yi jing wang ji le wo gang gang fen shou
xiang gao bie hen jiu
hai xiang wei ni zuo xie shen me

sianx.. when memories set in.. which shdnt be de case.. yawnx.. this album.. this song.. haiz..

buaix

mood: sianx
weather: hot
song now: toxic - britney

buaiz..

sianz.. jz had a big quarrel with my mum.. cuz of my beloved civics tutor who has no other business than to call up my mum to exaggerate of my misbehaviour in school and brainwashin her.. to make a mum.. i've respected so much.. so unwilling to even raise my voice at her.. to finally bother bout me.. jz when i dun need it at all.. allowing my bottled feelings to explode.. giving all 3 of my real family members a big shock.. even the ever-sterning dad.. and i juz shot off every piece of vulgarity vocabulary accumulated in 17+ years of my painful life.. holding nth back.. leaving no available words escaped.. at the best teacher dat not only screwed my gd fren's life but now mine too.. from today.. i've been even more bent on leaving dis place..

and when i tot can c her one laz time.. as usual.. she's still busy.. well.. datz it ba.. too bad..

(nice song - "with you" - jessica simpson)

juz watched chao ren qi xue yuan.. kinda influenced by it anywayx.. first of all.. the story and the ppl involved..
sun da wei - guy a
xu kai di - gal b
principal - guy c
in dis epi.. its more abt the love triangle abt these 3.. so a has made his stand very clear.. he like b.. and he kept askin b if b likes him too.. but cuz of the situation.. she nv say anything.. den the ppl ad them started to bring them together.. which made b even more awkward.. den came along c.. den c kinda sad cuz c likes b.. den at a point.. there was a choice between b and c.. but i mean.. duh? c stands no chance at all.. but b still cant face her feelings.. cuz its b's first time in dis kinda thing.. and no matter how much a asks b.. b nv gave her ans.. but.. i tink only i noticed it.. b.. actually forgot bout the happy times a n b were together.. and when things turn out to be such a case.. when a decision is required.. when reality dominates your own true feelings.. when b forgot what she real felt at the beginning.. only dwelling on such stuffs.. when b cant enjoy the company of a anymore.. when b are so pressurized by wanting or not to accept a's love.. when b has to consider so many things.. when b dwells too much on unnecessary stuffs.. when b wants to make best her first relationship.. factually.. she missed her real own feelings.. she can no longer enjoy the essence of love.. she cant let go and tan yi chang kuai le de lian ai.. y do ppl kept tinkin too much.. y cant ppl juz open their hearts.. be lovey.. i tink.. its a painful feelin to not noe wad u r tinking.. which is wad i'm feelin now..
sum words from the show: -
b - "ni zhe yang bu shi hen ren xing ma?"
b - "wo bu xiang hui da"
a - "ni jiu zhe me zai yi ta ren de yan guang ma?"
a - "zhi yao ni you na me YI DIAN de bu xi huan.. wo jiang yong yuan bu hui zai u fan ni.."
a - "wo shi zhen de hen xi huan ni.. suo yi wo xiang zhi dao.. ni dao di xi huan wo ma?"
hmm.. so many relevant words.. so far yet so near.. haiz.. next week.. hope i can watch again.. lemme c how they will turn out.. cuz its really too similar...

but den.. my decision to leave.. might disallow me to watch it anymore le.. :(

haix

mood: *-__-*
weather: sucky
song now: no song

haiz..

today.. got rather pissed off by u-noe-who-u-r.. haiz.. suan le.. who m i rite? no diff.. juz another bo liao guy rite? wadeva lor?

oreadi damn pissed in the mornz.. the assembly shit and stuffs.. haiz.. den.. wad did u do? u did nth.. precisely.. got so damn pissed off.. den maths lect.. received a damn sad sms.. den m.e.. cant possibly buck up.. den break.. oso sian sian.. no physics.. den chem prac.. listen to her preach again..? sucks.. b4 going off.. cuz of sum reason.. damn piz again..

haiz.. suan le suan le.. u cant wad oso so diff to gimme a call to tel me? well.. dun care liaoz..

ilu

mood: sianz
weather: suckx
song now: nth

50 first dates

well.. i've got nth to criticise bout dat show.. really.. hahaha..but.. haiz..

b4 dat.. a bit scared sum1 ps me la? haiz.. so wana watch dat show.. if ps me.. i'm gona be so damn sad lar? hahaha.. den ar.. ms thng end off early! hehez.. so can go find her and go earlier.. hehehz.. so qiao so gd.. hahaha.. the show arr? very gd.. hahaha.. hmm.. wonders if i can love a gal so deeply i can give up all gals for her.. if i can waste my youth for many one day's loves.. haiz.. so sad.. but i noe i cant..

nothing beats the first kiss.. izit? well.. my first kiss? given to sum1 i've loved so deeply.. yet so foolishly.. and the timing's wrong.. and the length's wrong.. but.. nothing beats the first kiss.. if i were to give sum1 else her first kiss.. i'll make it so memorable everytime she kisses she'll tink of me.. ya ya ya.. selfish.. dun care..

hmm.. sth dat dawned upon today.. as i saw sth i shdn't c.. the feelin came back again.. the fear.. of losing both.. i'm so scared.. maybe.. i shdn't make dat move in dat first place.. damn.. no.. plz.. no.. plz dun do this to me god.. plz.. not again.. haiz.. tinkin of this.. i cant even conc.. i noe she got look back.. my gut feelin.. but i dare not look up.. no way manx.. not again..

hehez

mood: sianxz
weather: sianzx
song now: i'd do anything - simple plan

hehez

sianz.. today tests sure die.. hahaha.. nvm lar.. suan le.. so tired today.. go slp ba.. hahaa.. ;p

did i?

mood: guilty
weather: suckx
song now: bu xiang shui

i said dat? i did dat?

i was using the com.. when my mum kept coming in and out.. irritating me.. so i slam n locked de door.. den she came.. knocked (or bang) on the door screamin.. den i sian 1/2 opened the door and she kept nagging n nagging.. den cool down..

5mins ltr.. she came in.. tellin me off bout sum things again. den say wad ni you ren nao hai shi zhu nao? ren nao hui xiang zhu nao bu hui and walked off.. den i shouted ni zai jiang shui? jiang ni zhi ji ar? and slammed n locked the door.. turned my hi-fi to the max.. so cant hear her screams outside the door.. laid on the bed.. den decided to come here and say..

sorry mum.. i juz xin qing bu hao.. forgive me.. but u noe my character .. i wun apologize to you directly one.. so.. well.. ya.. yawnx..