Sunday, June 26, 2005

summore

mood: >.<
weather: >,<
song now: >0<

was chatting with jl.. realize there is a special meaning as to the date when i ans to the altar call.. 24 of july.. meaning? 24/7.. meaning? i hafta serve God everydae!! heez..

bleahx

mood: happy!
weather: sunny
song now: lian ai da ren - luo zhi xiang

i loveeeeeee this song

got soooo many things to write ar.......

hmm.. was toking to sum1 about the vow thingy.. started thinking about it for sum time.. shd i start on the one-year anni. dae.. heez.. cuz i really cant set my heart for God with all these temptations surrounding me.. its lyk.. so hard to concentrate lar.. haiz..

anw.. i noe i shdn't even think about this at this stage.. but i dreamt one nite about this particular gal at chc lar.. its lyk so possible all of a sudden.. haiz.. shall not let myself fall into temptation.. budden ar.. haiz~~~ cant set my mind aside lar.. but on the other hand.. i still cant let go of the past lar.. sumhow anot felt kinda restricted now.. i noe i've changed.. but isit for the beta? i dunno.. memories still flood back.. but life still goes on.. so isit ok to look at the past? maybe once in a while looking back is fine, juz dun let it affect my future rite? easier said than done, but i'm gonna try anw.. haiz~

now i'm still deciding upon the water baptism thingy and the vow thingy.. shd i or shd i not? that is the question huh.. well~ i duno.. i sure need sum help manx.. life's all about making decisions.. a hard part of life, but sure it makes life more meaningful rite.. or does it.. was toking to my bez buddy.. or rather.. sms-ing.. kinda feel that a lot of frenz had left me.. nowadaes its lyk.. so hard to even find company for half a dae.. cuz everyone oreadi has their ways of life since everyone separated.. hard to not feel lonely yea. and sumtimes so aimless.. in schs your aim is to get gd results, in ns is to survive.. but whatx after that? so what if i got a first class honours in business? so what if i managed to get a career.. there's juz this sumthing missing in my life.. it shd be the purpose of life by God.. but i still cant find it.. the revelation is still not coming to me.. haiz~ shall wait for it den..

kinda sick and tired of everyday's mundane life.. mizz sa's life.. at least the ponning, the running away from teachers, the shouting across the class to tok lyk no one bothers, the bond-ar, sumar's lame qns, hockey training and outings, overnite stays at frenz houses.. all these.. haiz.. now what do i have? 1,3,5, 5bx with run.. 2,4,6 even worse.. circuit training + 3.2 k chiong + circuit training.. how to tahan rite? sianx.. how how how? how to survive? what shd i do now i oso dunoe liao.. sianx..

so hard to even do my daily quiet time now.. evrytime i'd juz reach back bunk at a ridiculous timing and spend a little time then ~bam~.. wake up in the morning? physical training.. haiz.. how how how? i'm losing it.. ns life has nv been so tough for me.. not even in sispec echo..

sian sian sian~ shall stop rambling about how poor i am.. but testify for how great is the Lord.. you can doubt me, can dislike me, can persecute me.. but still i hafta sae my Lord is great! everytime i pray and asked for his help, his pull along.. and he really did! for example in my new unit.. i was so desperate to enter into this course, but there's this selection test, sum psychomoto test.. and when i do it i noe i flunged it.. but still.. i pray so hard.. and i got in! then for driving.. its so hard to wake up and get on with the programme everytime.. but every morning i thank my Lord for this day, for my breath on earth.. that i can help fulfil his purpose.. and everyday he renew my body with strength to endure through.. i completed me driving phase, and if i'm not wrong, i'm the top for overall.. praise the Lord!! heez.. then now i'm entering into gunnery phase.. please bless me along as well.. i juz need your presence, to be able to shine for you, to glorify you, and moz imptly, not be affected by others but impact other ppl.. although every time i call they may not respond.. but i believe you can make me do it sumdae..

anw.. i got so impacted by this person's blog.. another chc person.. but then i learnt a lot from it.. i shall alwaes maintain a positive attitude and alwaes include God in evrything i do, even blogging.. shall learnt more from her.. and thank God for letting me stumble across this blog.. that i may come to noe the logic more.. :)

todae very free so can blog a lot.. but still.. yawnx.. gonna sleep liao..
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Saturday, June 25, 2005

就是你

mood: happy
weather:
song now:

合:hey you 就是你 请靠近我怀里 别假装不在意 你明明动了心 So baby 就是你 请不要再犹豫 我们玩个游戏 叫l.o.v.e (小s)给你一分钟 若还不心动 你就是没种 装再酷也知道没用 罗:baby 你不会懂 我就是要你心急 我恋爱无敌 可是她等得很急 合:hey you 就是你 请靠近我怀里 别假装不在意 你明明动了心 So baby 就是你 请不要再犹豫 我们玩个游戏 叫l.o.v.e yeah yes i do 罗:眼神不能在乎 态度若有似无 你自然就会 跟我走 情场路 (小s)你到底行不行 竟玩无聊的招数 我看过的猪 可是达人的程度 come on 合:hey you 就是你 请靠近我怀里 别假装不在意 我可能喜欢你 So baby就是你 请说你很开心 我有点喜欢你 有点喜欢你 Rap:哈哈 爱是个ya关系 它让我的身边 成为达人恋爱的机器 谁遇见你 连达人也会认输 Ya 为什么是你 我只想 ha 罗:为什么喜欢你 我已喜欢你 yeah~ (小s)u're so cute so won't u come to me 猪头才会一直玩游戏 耍心机 合:baby 就是你 请靠近我怀里 别假装不在意 我想我喜欢你 So baby就是你 请说你也愿意 我一直喜欢你 一直喜欢你~ 合:baby 就是你 请靠近我怀里 别假装不在意 我想我喜欢你 So baby就是你 请说你也愿意 我非常喜欢你 非常喜欢你 罗:非常喜欢你

Sunday, June 19, 2005

i miss you all soo much..

mood: nostalgic
weather: ok lor
song now: game of love - michelle branch and santana

miss clara soo much..

my twinie!!! juz toked to her.. haven been toking to her for soo many months.. its lyk an old fren found again.. mizz all those daes..

rem all the craziee stuffzz.. 2+ in the morning~ as alwaes.. all the gang together toking on msn.. then me and chow hungry.. then i cycle to her hse from yishun to angmokio ave 5 i think.. then after walk whole nite finding a pump for the bike... hahha.. in the oso nv eat prata.. keep walking and cycling to daniel's hse.. went to the playground and left our bikes.. then went into dan's hse with his maid's permission.. she recognized us anw.. went there stay over too many times.. then on the tv where sum dunno-wad-language news is broadcasting on the tv.. then mr. daniel still say wad he oreadi knew.. sleep laughing..~ haha... wadeva~ soo fun... precious memories..

then the finding nemo movie.. twinie still copy the whale and dory speak in that sssuuupppeeerrr ssslllooowww vvvoooiiiccceee which made me quite frustrated.. hahah.. then i was wearing an orange shirt with white stripes which i nv worn since then bcuz ah chow kept saying i was nemo.. hahaha..

then we oso got went to the kbox.. chow can actually sing~ hahaha.. ironically.. mr. sing cant sing.. his alddin sond.. a whole new world.. really brings us to a new world of singing.. still rem everyone juz asked him to shuttap when he zao sia( purposely one lar~)...

miss the gd old daes..

chow~ twinie~ i miss you too~

tired.. exhausted to the max

mood: tiredweather: coolingsong now: a song is born - ayumi hamasaki

tired.. the whole week of driving phase is craziee.. cant really sleep at all.. really super sianx lar.. the bos and aos really kills.. checking of oil levels.. the entire track plus wads in it.. every single small thing.. cant get to sleep b4 1230 am one.. if delay even worse.. haiz.. to think i went to kbox on sat nite and had less than 3 hrs of sleep last weekend.. jialat lar.. haiz.. nvm lar.. everything's over..

if He brings you to it, He will bring you thru it..

nx week hope i can endure lar..

anw.. i decided le.. never go there again.. only makes my heart more sad and disappointed.. i'm lonely.. but not desperate..

Sunday, June 12, 2005

book out

mood: ...
weather: fine lorz..
song now: ru guo you yi tian

laz nite went to beach road in the evening then went to ps to find fund and martin.. then kbox midnite to 4 am.. so shuang lar.. cuz no more small rooms.. then we get to use the vip room.. super big lorz.. shall get the fotos and videos from martin one dae..
woke up late and rushed to church.. was reprimanded by sis veron for being late.. haiz.. sorry lar.. really hard for me to get up and drag two others there rite? hahahaz..

laz nite.. got this song by guang liang and jasmine leung sumthing called ming ming hen ai ni/ta.. not sure oso.. but then saw the mtv.. hehehz.. when they about to marry.. the date.. hahaha.. cool.. wad a coincidence.. anw.. todae left early and didnt really interact with the cell group much this week.. hope i can haf a chance next week..

tcc.. we strike, we fight, we roll in day and nite, armour elites, tankee! starting the driving phase soon.. sianx.. servicing gonna take v long.. confirm no time liao lar.. so sleepy.. yawnx..

He is my strength, in Him i trust for my future, the ability to go thru this course well..

Sunday, June 05, 2005

blood of jesus

mood:
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song now:

One night in a church service a young woman felt the tug ofGodat her heart. She responded to God's call and accepted Jesus as her Lordand Savior. The young woman had a very rough past,involving alcohol,drugs, and prostitution. But, the change in her was evident.As time went on she became a faithful member of the church. Sheeventually became involved in the ministry, teaching young children. Itwas not very long until this faithful young woman had caught the eye andheart of the pastor's son.The relationship grew and they began to make wedding plans. This is whenthe problems began. You see, about one half of the church did not thinkthat a woman with a past such as hers was suitable for a pastor'sson.The church began to argue and fight about the matter. So theydecided to have a meeting. As the people made their arguments andTensions increased,the meeting was getting completely out of hand.The young woman became very upset about all the things being brought upabout her past. As she began to cry, the pastor's son stood to speak. Hecould not bear the pain it was causing his wife-to-be. He began to speakand his statement was this: "My fianci's past is not what is on trialhere. What you are questioning is the ability of the blood of Jesus towash away sin. Today you have put the blood of Jesus on trial. So, doesit wash away sin or not? The whole church began to weep as they realizedthat they had been slandering the blood of the Lord Jesus Christ.Too often, even as Christians, we bring up the past and use it as aweapon against our brothers and sisters. Forgiveness is a veryfoundational part of the Gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ. If the bloodof Jesus does not cleanse the other person completely then it cannotcleanse us completely. If that is the case, then we are all in a lot oftrouble. What can wash away my sins? Nothing but the blood of Jesus! Endof case!!!"Cast your burden upon the Lord, and He shall sustain you. He shallnever suffer the righteous to be moved " Psalm 55:23

Friday, June 03, 2005

heez.. faith

mood:
weather:
song now: lonely



An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem
science has with God, The Almighty.
He asks one of his new Christian students to stand and.....
Professor: You are a Christian, aren't you, son?
Student : Yes, sir.
Prof: So you believe in God?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Prof: Is God good?
Student : Sure.
Prof: Is God all-powerful?
Student : Yes.
Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is this God good then? Hmm?
(Student is silent.)
Prof: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?
Student :Yes.
Prof: Is Satan good?
Student : No.
Prof: Where does Satan come from?
Student : From...God...
Prof: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student : Yes.
Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct?
Student : Yes.
Prof: So who created evil?
(Student does not answer.)
Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?
Student :Yes, sir.
Prof: So, who created them?
(Student has no answer.)
Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?
Student : No , sir.
Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?
Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student : Yes.
Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student : Nothing. I only have my faith.
Prof: Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.
Student : Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Prof: Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as cold?
Prof: Yes.
Student : No sir. There isn't.
The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)
Student : Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)
Student : What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?
Student : You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light. But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?
Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student : Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student : Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as >the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
Student : Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.) Student : Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavour, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?
(The class is in uproar.)
Student : Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?
(The class breaks out into laughter.)
Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it?.....No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable.)
Prof: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.
Student : That is it sir.. The link between man & god is FAITH. That is all that keeps things moving & alive.
NB: I believe you have enjoyed the conversation...and if so...you'll probably want your friends/colleagues to enjoy the same, won't you? forward them to increase their knowledge... Have a nice day.. =)

Thursday, June 02, 2005

stupid auntie

mood: ??
weather:
song now:

cant stand my auntie..

how can she chase my grandma away?

how can she be so heartless?

how can a person do this to another person?