stranded on an island

i'm not a person of explanation, but i need to rant it out.

1.first i have these competitors who have a solid proposal to kio sai, made everything hard for me.
2.conclusion: to win need 40 ppl
3.budget cant choose country lyk japan, South korea, europe
4.left with china taiwan indo
5.faced sum1 who's suppose to know everything but know nothing
6.require my comm to help out but most insist on taiwan left me with no choice
7.tell me deadline is feb during feb
8.rush everything out
9.said i shd have went south korea, china, where i have zero contacts
10.tell me very hard

I admit its my fault for not noticing the dates and assuming too much. but the circumstances are really against me all the time. in bizipedia, in acad week , even in corporate visits. things love to crop up. luckily i'm not defeated, never will. If my God is for me, then who can be against me.

but beaten, tattered and torn, fuel tank emptied. If this world dun suck then everyone will be falling off the earth rite?

thank god in hard times i see frenz. frenz who already dio a big bomb to do (law tut presentation) who still take many fotos again and again for me and not clear? tell me ALL the figures in the question. Fren who ask out of his own initiative to share the burden and nv once say that i've disappointed him. Fren who listen on and on for my ranting and say that we are brudders and that she will help me keep it to herself.

The circle of frenz - line that is never-ending. You dunno when it started, but you know it will never end

And more imptly my petrol station. dearie tania.. always supporting me at the back and listening to my complainings. nothing much to say. but this fri.. after all ordeals.. i'm gonna be so gd to you. starting with a steak at jack's place, *yumz*

problems in opportunites, or opportunites in problems. I will soon find out wad type of person i am.

haiz

free time in doing what i want - its not a privilege (already), it is my misfortune (now for losing it)

fortitude

fortitude:
-mental and emotional strength in facing difficulty, adversity, danger, or temptation courageously.

in view of the pressure i'm facing now, i guess no one knows anw, i learn this new word. fortitude. I would have whined, cried, quit, gave up, lost my temper and all sorts of disappointing actions. but i know, and i chose not. Many a times i feel lyk giving up, i looked back into my presentation, my speech, my promise to the ppl. no one rems them anymore after the election. but i do. holding true to my word, i said 100% commitment. therefore, it means no quitting, even if it means 4,5 hours of sleep a day. even if it means the whole world doesnt agree or even noe wad i'm doing.

do i regret? do i regret starting so late? no. cuz i know, if time were to go back. it'll be the same. i'm a very time efficient person. that does not imply i do things way b4 time. that implies i do things in the amount of time required. the idle time, i believe is for resting, b4 - rest for prep, after - rest after the actions. so till now, even if the world is against me, i wun change my view, juz sad that sum ppl are actually suffering because of my obstinate nature. for e.g. zhenjie now oso facing prob in bizipedia, maybe we shd indeed start earlier, not saying that i regret, but juz maybe its better to start better, tho the more i think of it the more i wana pawn sumone's ass who left me a whole pile of shit that kills my passion.

now currently, 5 projs on hand.
1.acad week- keep liasing with chenlu
2.bizipedia- trying to do sum damage control and liasing with the office soon i hope
3.corporate visit - damage control too as the company list there screw up now have to send a lot of proposals to companied liao.
4.overseas study trip - dun dare to ask zhenjie for help as he's already very busy with bizipedia, which i really wana thank him for helping me to take up such a burden in such times.
5.programs comm, suddenly i got booth duty for both cny goodies and vdae booth(soon i guess). summore muz plan out the fright nite liao.
It is imperative that all these projects must get thru, and i will do my best to make sure it happens no matter how tough the going gets.

but i say it again. i'm not regretting. this world is not looking for ppl with high IQ or EQ now.. but the ppl who can handle difficult situations calmly and happily. i wana be this kind of person. and i believe i will. after this ordeal. i will be a better man. holding steadfast to my word to the ppl who supported me during elections, i will give my 101% commitment.

well, i just hope its not at the expense of my cap. :(

a story to tell myself and to remind myself-
john stephen akhwari -
"My country did not send me to Mexico City to start the race. They sent me to finish."

Choice

when sum1 wants to make negative comment on me, i can choose to...
1) be demoralized and give up
2) prove them wrong

When i choose to prove them wrong, i can choose to...
1) do it fast and well
2) do it slow

When i choose to do it fast and good, i can choose to...
1) grumble and have vengence in my heart
2) do it happily still and hope i learn sumthing in this event

Life is a matter of choices. You only live once, but if you live it right, once is enough.

scandalous