mugging has been driving me crazy..
lyk why the hell am i awake at this hour?
actually, i dunno why this is happening to me, but i am becoming a lil emo with the exams coming up. created a chinese playlist for myself to study for the next few days. really hate studying.
klar booked seats for us today, where me, mj (mingjiao), yiwen, dexter came afterwards. why do time fly past so easily? at the rate it is going, it will all be a fast-forward film for my life. i need to know wad i want.
went church on sunday, and i was very sad. miss God terribly, but i'm not doing anything about it. i need help in finding Him back. Darling.. help me ok? (didnt tell you this cuz i didnt think of it sooner and think i will forget again)
the songs playing now is definitely detrimental for my studies, but i cant get the emo feeling away. how long have i not been feeling this way? 4 years? i dun wana revert back to myself where emotions rule my heart, but this nostalgic feeling, of indulging in self wallow, or nuanting puts it, angst (i dun think there is a word called angsty so i shall not correct her, but i insist no such word tho), and the feeling lyk the whole world owes me sumthing... it rocks... putting the blame on everything else but you, telling you if the world dun suck everyone would have fall off the earth..
everytime when i write a post there shd be a reason for it..
but this time, not really.. or perhaps i juz miss my darling too much that the emo side of me is coming out.. dun be scared of it k? sorry.. i will recover soon, likely to be on the 7th of may.
