mood: sian
weather: sunny
song now: 搁浅

sorrie yea

久未放晴的天空 依旧留着你的笑容 哭过却无法掩埋歉疚
风筝在阴天搁浅 想念还在等待救援 我拉着线复习你给的温柔
暴晒在一旁的寂寞 笑我给不起承诺 怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我
我只能永远读着对白 我原谅不了我 就请你当作我已不在
我睁开双眼 看着空白 忘记你对我的期待读完了依赖 我很快就离开

sorrie.. sad when i read your blog.. nv got really hated b4... but well.. thatz still a relief.. thank God for His grace that i finally solve.. or rather.. going to solve this sticky issue.. finally..whew..

anw.. yesterdae went to celebrate my bdae with a dinner.. haiz.. i noe its arise and build... so i wun mind a cheap dinner... why muz go to ajisen.. can c that everyone actually quite broke.. haiz.. guilty.. but still.. happy.. tho i dun really project it out.. cuz i still a major problem on my mind.. but in fact i'm very grateful for all of you all..

ani(wow), sutiean, weilun, shan shan , junjie, andrew, marc, victor, alex, jasmine.. all the dua pais leh.. honoured sia.. maybe sis. veron feels dat i haf sumthing on my mind.. and she really did a v gd job in bringing me back and closer to the cell group.. thank God for such a fabulous cgl.. i haf been shunning myself from the cell group.. cuz i dun wan my mood to affect them.. but their presence reeally made me feel the warmth in the cell group..

i dun wana leave them leh.. even for 3 weeks.. lyk a bit childish.. i dunno... haiz.. i hafta go means i hafta go.. wad to do..

then there's this girl i noe got pos. one.. i trying to siam and try not to tok.. its lyk.. sum ppl is lyk total 0%.. but sum people u noe it one.. can one.. but after this incident i really decide dun plae with fire liao.. haiz.. nononno..

duno wad to write.. later then write again.. bout taiwan la..

still bad

mood: >.<
weather: not gd
song now: ting jian - steph sun

its not i hate, its just i dun

still.. sorrie..

anw.. thank you shuting.. in times of trouble thank God for you standing by me and just listening to what i'm talking.. just rewally wana thank you for your company when i needed sum1 to b by my side most.. you brought me to church.. now you became my rubbish bin for throwing all my rubbish tots to you.. thank you..

and oso thanx to sum1.. who gave me such precious suggestions and a voice to talk to.. talking to you kinda makes my mood beta yea? heez..

and again and again.. sorie.. yea.. i think what you are doing is rite.. juz forget me.. get me out of your world.. hate me for all you lyk k? dun rec my sms.. everything you said.. juz do them ok? mayb that will lift my guilt a lil.. plz do.. i cant take it when you cry for me.. i'm juz so unworthy of your tears.. plz.. i need sum space too.. hope that you will haf your bez in your future endeavours, be it life or wad.. hope for the bez for you..

i'm sorie..

no title

mood: not gd
weather: ...
song now: never ever - ayumi hamasaki

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juz came back from weiliang house.. played sum mahjong but i nv gamble.. anw.. had been thinking a lot in his house. so might as well juz pen it down huh..

going to roc in one more week.. meaning my bdae would be in taiwan.. summore being the lps in the worst period among the whole 21 weeks.. how lucky can i get? haiz.. anw.. touch wood.. if anything happens.. hope my parents would go to chc and get saved yea.. anw.. when will i ever get my two other present for my bdae.. i alwaes wanted 3 v unique presents.. i've got one of them... (or rather two .. ) left two other.. will i ever get them? i dunno.. hope so ba..

sianx.. still got so long to pop.. i decided.. once i pop i wanna go contact all my frenz possible and go take a foto with all of them.. so next time i would c a whooollleee series of fotos with successive dates and different frenz.. altho that sounds lyk an expensive plan.. both money and time.. but i really lost contact with a lot of frenz le.. i wan to knoe and let them noe that i haven forgotten them.. yea..

and so sorrie to sum1.. sorry.. my gd fren alwaes told me not to plae with fire.. it would either burn yourself or others.. worse is both.. i'm sorrie.. but i dun mean it.. i can offer a thousand apologies but still i hafta say i dun mean it and forgive me for my childish behaviour and hope not.., my damage to you.. sumtimes i really wonder what the hell i m thinking.. i sorted out recently.. maybe thatz y i put an end to the game.. its time for me to grow up.. dun ever play with fire.. i wun.. i was really joking.. come to think of it.. its not farnie in the first place..

maybe.. if i can free myself from what that limits me now.. then i will be fine..

kinda being in a deep shit now.. nvm...

the story wun cont.. i wun let it cont.. i juz wun..

letting go is most often the hardet thing to do.. hard to forgive, harder to forget.. what is the worst thing that can happen to anyone? ditched, bankrupt, insulted, framed? i think its a forgotten person... no longer registers in anyone's mind.. but if i were to choose.. pls forget me..

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wadz that?

datz all i can say