回忆也许美 可是正在飞走对不对

mood: sadx
weather: hot
song now: 同类 - 孙燕姿

a few songs that set me thinking..

同类, 我也很想他..

both by stef sun.. very nice.. cuz it realates to my past i think.. or rather.. touches my heart lahz..

went for cell group.. rather awkward for me cuz i dun really noe them well.. not my cell group cuz they went yesterdae.. budden todae still a while then accustomed liao lahz.. very tired still. nutcracker really no joke manx.. lesson high kneel.. no sleep.. pouring.. turnout... sad ar.. sumtimes i really wonder if i'm fit to be a commander.. sianx.. gonna get my corporal rank soon.. but still dunno my future.. wadz worst is later go aslc~ then go 1 s.i.r infantry recce.. then i really sian diao.. spent moz of my time as a trainee.. undergo pow treatment.. jcc.. all the crap that i can go thru.. sianx.. i really dunno wad to do.. if thatz the plan and God's will.. i would gladly follow it thru.. but i really shd pray that i would end up in a better vocation.. please.. dun be so cruel to me..

juz talked to andrew about martin.. i really dunno wad i can do to help him.. he looked really lost.. i oso dunno how liao lahz..

hmm.. another one of my lame stories.. from a stranger, yet not so stranger blog..

a person on the stage held up a fifty dollar note on the stage and asked.."who wans this note?" everyone raised up their hands.. then he crumbled the note into a ball.. and opened it up again.. and he asked again, "who wans this note?" everyone kept their hands raised again.. he then crumbled it.. stepped on it.. even rubbed it against the floor and picked up the dirty fifty dollar note.. and he asked again, "who wans this note?" everyone still raised up their hands.. then he said, " its the same with you people.. God wans you no matter how bad you are.. however bad you are.. your value ramains the same to God.. if a fifty dollar can make people wans them regardless of its condition.. wad more is you, priceless to the all-loving God? He wans you back, He loves you because your priceless value still stays, and His love for you is beyond all limits..

so come back to Him, will you?

and if you happen to read my story about the starfish.. God will speak to you and give you your own revelation than me giving you.. Let Him touch you, take a step towards Him and He will overcome the rest of the distance towards you..

finally over..

mood: glad
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finally over liao.. this week had been quite sum hell for me manx.. tues nutcracker until thurs.. really been praying hard that my health would alow me to finish this exercise.. i mean.. in the dae its lyk.. 34 degrees.. then both nites it has been pouring so badly the whole shellscrape is filled with mud, literally a mini swimming pool and everyone got so drenched.. so many ppl had reported sick cuz of the nutcracker.. but i didnt.. i really thank God for that.. i finished my course.. dun worry.. for Jesus has overcome the world..

after that.. got marksmanship training for section firing.. quite fun.. the enemy coming over and we defend our objective.. though we fail.. hahah.. then cleaning up all the way until nite. sleep.. then icct next moring.. super hot again.. learn how to break fall.. haha.. next week would be learning locks.. then lunch.. and go back clean rifle then pack up and go chevron.. chevron's beside imm.. quite nice lar. a centre for the ns man.. haha.. got jackpot, duty free beer, arcade, chalet, restaurant, bowling and blah blahx.. then went home myself.. heez..

on mon nite.. slept for about 4 hrs.. then nutcraker sleep here and there cuz we are not supposed to sleep at all.. so its about two hours in two daes.. then come back.. another 4+ hrs.. thats al i had for the week.. its lyk.. quite crazy lor.. sian.. then during lesson hafta high kneel.. plus the rain.. plus the turnouts.. wah~ its super crazy lar.. xiong ar.. but i've been thru them~ be of good cheer, for You have overcome the world..

a glimpse of hope

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maybe i can find her again..

after three, no, four years.. finally.. a glimpse of hope..

pls let me find her again and know how she is doing.. if she's fine or not.. if she still rem me..

;D

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Lonely
I'm Mr Lonely,
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely,
I'm Mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got that one good girl whose always been there like yaKno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave

I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin
I'm so lonely (so lonely),
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely

So lonely (so lonely)I
'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girrll

Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id ever
Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girll

Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely), Mr. Lonely

sianx.. nothing to do todae.. actually can go swim with jialiang and fer one.. budden.. hmm.. dunno lar~ so sianx.. in army.. gonna go nutcracker soon.. gd luck manx.. sianx.. i'm gonna haf the hellweek of sispec soon..

once, there's this old man.. every morning he would go to the beach and throw the starfishes on the shoreline back into the sea.. a young man went past.. and was wondering what he was doing.. there.. he stayed over nearby and observed this old man for quite sum daes... finally he asked, " old man, what are you doing?" the old man ans, "i'm throwing the starfishes back to the sea or they would get dehydrated and die".. the young man replied," but it is all futile, whenever high tide follows by low tide, they would get washed up onto the shore, you will never get to finish throwing them back.. there are hundreds of them.. there are no difference".. the old man bend down, picked up a starfish and stand up, looking back to the young man and then threw the starfish back into the sea and said, "well, i made a difference for that one".. some years later, the old man died, but every morning, that young man still continues to go to the shore and throw back the starfishes... ~end~

juz sum story i heard when i was young.. which really made an impact on my life.. wanted to share this story with a fren of mine.. but guessed.. everything juz goes on per normal ba. whateva.. i dun care, dun wana care anymore..

sispec?

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i dowan go back sispec!!!! help!!!