missing in action

mood: *_*
weather: ~~~
song now: to heart - kinki kids

Better never to have met you in my dream than to wake and reach for hands that are not there.

where are you when i want to see you the most.. to relive every single moment we were together and we thought it is going to be forever.. and of the ways i want to connect back to you i found a senseless meaning of life yet so profound and captivating it drew me closer and closer to insanity. and insanity is me and you. and the clench of destiny overwhelms the galaxy and we are both set on a point each. yet moving again on parallel lines, crossing only an imaginary but utterly impossible path.

a single soul, once inhabited in two bodies, once warmed two hearts, and is disintegrated and burning, incinerating within a cold shell with deafening silence. stream of life flows upwards, and again and again..

no intel to decipher.. until the sight of you when i close my eyes tell me so..

i miss you.

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TodaE's horo...

You're the very soul of accommodation. You love to make others happy and you'll offer your services to achieve those ends any time you think you're needed. That's lovely, but you often forget about your own needs in the process. Don't let that happen now. You were recently introduced to someone who could make this a wonderful weekend for you -- if you let them. Allow the rest of the world to take care of itself, just for now.

sianx..

mood: tired
weather: hot
song now: heng xing de heng xin

really damn bored now larz.. yawnx.. think i going to sleep soon..

life suckx.. when i'm looking forward so much to this bookout at 1745.. i was laz min informed that i got to do guard duty till todae morning 10.. haiz.. why why why why? sianx..

and now.. seven mopre hours back to the mox xiong week of bslc term 1.. haiz.. how? then i oso now becum the section commander.. haiz.. why why why why? really dunnoe my purpose liao.. think i juz scrape paz all these stufz and then scrape past the sergeant's two years and outta this stupid island.. haiz.. i'm really very sick and tired of life in tekong.. no one would probably understand how i feel.. wad can i do? awol look so luring now.. hahah.. wanted to go church todae but seriously no time.. wana spend sum time with my celll group oso no time le.. why why why why?

my bez fren in whiskey.. and of cuz continues on to echo.. pte loh yeow yong aka yy.. juz ooc.. feel so sad for him.. cried a bit for him too.. he really very poor thing seh.. going thru so much juz to find all wad he dun want to hear.. haiz.. may god blezz you and bring you thru it.. he will..

the guard duty wasnt fun.. more tired than plain tired..

so many troubles in me now.. really sucks man.. what can i do? what can i do about that.. really damn turned off liao.. and i juz realize i haven really got any fren to talk to nowadays.. its lyk.. everyone drifted so far from each other... sec sch frenz.. cj clique.. my hoteh s74 frenz.. even my whiskey section mates.. feel so lost now..really lyk no frenz now.. anyone out there still remember me?

haiz

mood: sleepy
weather: hot
song now: gui ji - jay chou

>.<

i miss main land too much..

i even dreamt of almoz all my close frenz in one dream alone.. hahaha.. all in one dream.. lyk everyone i noe since j1.. really glad to haf that dream.. but when i woke up on a sispec echo 3 bed.. a new dae had juz begun..

sianx.. oh.. juz now i went to vincent's bbq.. budden its lyk so many cliques here and there.. then in the end? all in their separate groups with vincent 'giap ' everywhere.. hhaha.. and julian and really cook non - stop.. *respect.. hahaha.. next week gonna start sispec training proper liao.. how ne? how how how?

really dunnoe wad i shd do liao.. eyes closing soon.. with only about 5 hours or 6 to my wake up time b4 church.. wah.. sianx.. not church sianx.. but the stupid routine..

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